With every passing day, school gets closer and closer! Ergh. I hate school. I've become so lazy this summer that I don't know how I'm going to go back. And I have to clean my room 'cause now I have to sleep there, as I've slept in the living room all summer. It's nice and cold there. Anywho, this was a short summer. I didn't do half the things that I planned to. Like, getting a job.

I was supposed to go back to camp as a counsellor, but I changed my mind. You have to pay to work there the first year, and I decided that I'd rather -get- payed for work than have to pay. I don't know. I just really don't want to go back to school. It stresses the hell out of me.

I've found lately that I've been getting really melancholic. Not like usual. Don't know why. I guess I just feel out of touch with this world. Like, I'm just sitting by myself and looking in... Wishing that I belonged. Sure, I've got friends. But sometimes, they don't seem to be enough. Sometimes, you just want a change. You want to meet new and exciting people. I just wish that I was different... More outgoing. I wish I knew what the 'right' things to say were. I don't know. It's sort of hard to explain. I guess my insecurities have returned once again. They don't ever seem to leave for good.